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I have one more person to forgive: myself. Forgive the part of yourself that was victimised, and let go of all blame. Don’t hold yourself responsible for something that’s not your fault. What if blaming yourself is just a way of maintain the fantasy that the world is in your control? We can’t control otherContinue reading “Forgive yourself”

This is the work of healing. You deny what hurts, what you fear. You avoid it at all costs. Then you find a way to welcome and embrace what you’re most afraid of. And then you can finally let it go. – The Choice: Embrace The Possible

I’m reading a book called “The Choice: Embrace the Possible” by Edith Eva Eger, a concentration camp survivor. In the book, she writes about learned helplessness: In the 1960s, Martin Seligman, a psychologist, conducted a series of experiments on dogs. It would be deemed cruelty to animals today, but these laws weren’t around then.  HeContinue reading “Learned helplessness”

I think I’m going to be okay. I no longer feel like crying whenever I see a photo or video of you. 2019 was a rough year. I lost many friendships and relationships important to me. And for most of the year, it seemed like I could not let go of the most significant one.Continue reading “Okay”

All media is scripted. That’s the first lesson in Media Literacy 101. In media, the constraining factor is the audience’s attention span. This appears in various forms. In print media, article length is the key deciding factor. On video, it’s time. That’s why video makers such as Nas Daily constrains himself to making short videos.Continue reading “Don’t believe everything that is said about you”

Sometimes when you apply for jobs, you see a job requirement “must be a team player”. It’s occurred to me that I fail in this requirement. I am most definitely not a team player. I mean, I could be persuaded to work as part of a team by a capable leader. But by and large,Continue reading ““Must be a team player””

Some days are just a haze. I’m not really present and it’s hard to focus on anything in particular. On such days, I lose myself in a game, a book, an anime, or a movie. I just want the day to pass by as quickly as possible, so that I can go back to sleep.Continue reading “Some days”

Sometimes I feel I am losing my mind, when I cannot recall the details of something I should. It’s like trying to grasp at the straws of a fading dream soon after waking up. I’ve learned not to rely on memory, that fickle thing. It chooses and selects what to remember and what to forget.Continue reading “Memory is a fickle thing”

I’ve seen you a thousand times, but none of them are you. Your dress, the way you walk, the way your arms bulge, the way your hair falls down by the side of your face When you turn, I look to see your face, but it never is you. Except that one time when itContinue reading “Time to let go”

2 years, 4 months ago, I decided to stop working. I tell people it’s because I wanted to explore the freegan way of life and figure out how to make it last for the rest of my life without having to go back to work. That’s only partly true. It’s just that the real reasonContinue reading “Still going strong”