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I dreamt of you again last night. Probably because I talked about you to a friend. In the dream, you still wanted to be part of my life. But I no longer want you in mine. I apologised to you in the dream, and then we both cried. And I woke up. It was justContinue reading “Just a dream”

I dreamt of you last night. I’ve been dreaming of you almost every day this past week. Was it a good dream or bad dream? It was neither. It was dreams of every day life, as though I was really meeting you in person. Last night, you invited me to go with you to yourContinue reading “Dreaming of you”

I haven’t been doing so well. It seems like I come here to write only when I’m not doing so well. I watched a movie a couple of days ago. It’s called The Perks of Being a Wallflower. It’s about this boy who is a wallflower, that is, an introverted person who attends parties andContinue reading “Being a wallflower”

It’s our 10th anniversary today. I thought we would be done with each other by now. But still, we are locked in a contract together, trying to break free from each other. This will probably be our last. We have spent the last 6 months untangling ourselves. We have finally disposed of our matrimonial home.Continue reading “Happy 10th”

About 6 months ago, I went to see a lawyer to enquire about the possibility of an annulment. It seems slim. I brought this news back to my ex, and told her that if she wanted an annulment, she can approach this lawyer. If there’s no word from her by end-Feb 2020, I would proceedContinue reading “And so it begins…”

It hurts when the people you’ve loved and cared so much for turn against you. It hurts when you discovered they’ve been talking bad about you in secret. Yes, nothing that is said in secret remains a secret forever. That is why we should avoid speaking ill of others behind their backs. Word eventually getsContinue reading “It hurts”

I’ve decided to end it. I’m so sick of the infighting, the distrust of intentions. I don’t want to do this anymore. I’m tired. I’ve had it. If I ever do this again, I’m gonna rule with an iron fist. No more mister nice guy. You create problems, you get kicked out immediately. If IContinue reading “Ending it”

I haven’t written in here for a couple of weeks. I’ve been busy. I decided to take up that part-time work after all. I’ve been having difficulty getting a good night’s sleep. No matter what I do, I just can’t seem to get to sleep, or I wake up in the middle of the night.Continue reading “Part-time work”

It occurred to me today that being able to function as an adult in the world means being able to balance or regulate the wants of the Id with the wants of the Superego. The Id’s wants are all emotional. It has no sense of societal norms. The Superego’s wants are all societal and conformity.Continue reading “Unhealthy psyche”

Sleep has been a precious commodity these days. It is a good thing that I’m not working because my sleep, or lack thereof, has been extremely disruptive. Sometimes I’m so tired but I just can’t relax enough to fall asleep. I learned years ago not to force myself to sleep, because that would make meContinue reading “Sleep”