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“Daniel, why are you so far from the community now?” asked a friend some months ago. “You want to be given the option to accept or decline the invitation? If you keep declining, sooner or later, people will stop inviting you,” said another friend a few days ago. The funny thing about depression is thatContinue reading “Helium balloons floating away”

10 years ago, back when I first got depression, I kept feeling like my life had no meaning. Now, I still feel the same. Back then, someone told me that life inherently has no meaning, and that any meaning anyone’s life had, was created by themselves. From there, I came to realise that if myContinue reading “The meaning of life”

It feels like I’m drowning. It feels like, for a brief moment, everything is going to be alright. Then it feels like I’m drowning again. Like somebody pushed me under again. Busy. I have to keep busy. Lest these thoughts and feelings of despair overwhelm me.

I feel… disconnected. I keep scrolling my social media feeds, looking for someone to interact with. Yet when interaction comes, I withdraw from it. It’s not loneliness that I feel. It’s more of a sense of disconnection. Disconnected from my community. Disconnected from my friends. Disconnected from a bigger cause. Disconnected from myself. But asContinue reading “Disconnection”

I watched the movie Joker this week and there was this one line that struck me: “The worst part about having mental illness is people expect you to behave as if you don’t.” This is so true. I was expressing a problem I had which I could see is a direct consequence of withdrawal dueContinue reading “The worst part about having mental illness”

I have one more person to forgive: myself. Forgive the part of yourself that was victimised, and let go of all blame. Don’t hold yourself responsible for something that’s not your fault. What if blaming yourself is just a way of maintain the fantasy that the world is in your control? We can’t control otherContinue reading “Forgive yourself”

This is the work of healing. You deny what hurts, what you fear. You avoid it at all costs. Then you find a way to welcome and embrace what you’re most afraid of. And then you can finally let it go. – The Choice: Embrace The Possible

I’m reading a book called “The Choice: Embrace the Possible” by Edith Eva Eger, a concentration camp survivor. In the book, she writes about learned helplessness: In the 1960s, Martin Seligman, a psychologist, conducted a series of experiments on dogs. It would be deemed cruelty to animals today, but these laws weren’t around then.  HeContinue reading “Learned helplessness”

I think I’m going to be okay. I no longer feel like crying whenever I see a photo or video of you. 2019 was a rough year. I lost many friendships and relationships important to me. And for most of the year, it seemed like I could not let go of the most significant one.Continue reading “Okay”

All media is scripted. That’s the first lesson in Media Literacy 101. In media, the constraining factor is the audience’s attention span. This appears in various forms. In print media, article length is the key deciding factor. On video, it’s time. That’s why video makers such as Nas Daily constrains himself to making short videos.Continue reading “Don’t believe everything that is said about you”